Pathways Unclear

I am officially finished labs for this term. Hallelujah, amen?

My feeling-like-crap-i-ness must have hit an all time high today. Am I eating less vegetables or something?

Anant brought me Indian food at lunch today. It was a little scary. I don't do well with the whole experimenting with food thing. But I feel cultured nonetheless.

I made a huge dent in my Christmas present wrapping/Christmas card signing today. Seeing the little pile of gifts wrapped in Strawberry Shortcake paper by my desk makes my day.

Part in support of Sarah's blog/part just in general:

Over the past week, I've been pretty excited about maybe doing engineering. Once first year is over, it's all math and stuff that I'm actually good at. And it's super career directed, so I'd have no messing around with graduate studies or not getting a job or anything like that. (And, in the words of Kayla Sexton, "it's a good place to find a man." hahaaaaaaaaa).

Then today in physics, we were a having a big random discussion about Judaism and Christianity. I was trying to say that I kind of consider Christianity a form of Judaism, since we're pretty much just Jews who branched off. Then we started talking about how Christianity, Judaism, and Islam are all apparently very similar. Out of nowhere I get this big brainwave that I want to do a Religion elective really soon, because I find this stuff amazingly interesting. Just as I'm reaching the height of my excitement, I realize that, in engineering, you get to pick like 3 electives from a specific list (I doubt religion is on it, though I could be wrong). Engineering sounds great and rewarding, but I want to continue learning and broadening myself. Engineers, stereotypically, can work problems like the Dickens, but can't convey their thoughts in proper written sentence. Engineering is so pointed. I don't want to be that kind of person.

So, is there no program to fit my mold? Seriously. I'm pretty sure I've decided on just about everything MUN has to offer at some point during this term and nothing works. Music is stupid. Psychology isn't mathematical enough. Engineering is too one-tracked. I fit nowhere that I can see.

Indecision is definitely catching up with us. What faculty are we going to apply to in the spring? The rest of our lives are waiting, and I'm nowhere near figuring myself out.